Author: skesslerwrites

  • I’m back baby!

    Besties,

    Can I tell you where I’ve been?

    Physically and metaphysically?

    In August, I moved over 500 miles from the place that I’d called home for the past 18 years.

    Then in September, I travelled over 3,000 miles to Scotland.

    It was the last time I saw my luggage. My new Barbour jacket. My earrings my mother got me “just because.”

    While I am currently the American-Airlines-baggage-attendant-at-JFK’s worst nightmare, as I sort out my lost luggage woes, I am happy to report that my travels cured me. And not just because I got to use my EU passport for the first time and cruise through customs in Amsterdam. Never in my life have I felt more superior…

    No, during my time abroad, something deep within me eased. Like the anxious dog circling in my soul finally got comfortable, laid down, and settled in for a nap.

    You may have heard me whine that I’ve barely read any books this year with all the stress of moving and finding a new job and saying goodbye to loved ones. And that’s true. From January 2025 to September 2025, I had managed to read a whopping 6 books. I am happy to report that in the last 3 weeks, I have managed to finish 3. Including one that I started nearly a year ago.

    I’m back baby!

    And with that warm fuzzy feeling that a good book leaves you with, I find myself reaching for my keyboard once more.

    Time has become more precious than ever in my new world. And I struggle to carve out time for this time-consuming hobby of mine. But I am determined to return to my final rewrite of A Case of You, to finally devote myself to the satirical saga of Middle Ages, and I even concocted a little globetrotter rom-com during a nap on a stormy afternoon on the Isle of Skye.

    My world is still very much turned upside down. But things are beginning to settle down. She says as her calendar notes she is due to be out of town for 3 of the next 4 weekends…

    It’s fine! Really! I’m great. I’m excited. I’m having fun.

    Por ejemplo, this evening I am going to the Saratoga Springs Book Festival Literary Night Market. It’s a local author showcase where hopefully I can meet some fellow writers and snag a few books to add to my massive TBR pile.

    Since I’ve officially gotten my NYS ID, I can now get a library card. So I’ll be making my way to the local literary meccas in the area and obtaining a card nearly as useful for escaping as my EU passport is.

    And finally, if the weather stays as nice as it promises to, I’ll close out the weekend with one last boat trip for the year. The lakes here in Upstate NY are insanely large and lovely and I just can’t wait to get back out on the water.


    Let’s do a mini R.E.P.O.R.T. I’m feeling chatty.

    • Reading: Katabasis by R.F. Kuang.
      • R.F. Kuang is my freaking idol. And didn’t even realize she had a new book out but when I walked into a bookstore in Leith and saw that there was one autographed copy left, I snatched it up before I even knew what the book was about. Obsessed.
    • Eating: Not as well as I was in Scotland and Amsterdam last week.
      • I’m still dreaming of the pastries from MacKenzie’s Bakery in Portree.
    • Playing: Life of a Showgirl obviously. But also Olivia Dean on repeat.
    • Obsessing: Over my lost luggage.
      • I don’t want to talk about it anymore. Unless you have a solution. In which case, call me.
    • Recommending: That everyone get airtags for their luggage.
    • Treating: Maybe it’s not a treat, but I’m getting my haircut Sunday.
      • I grew it out for Scotland, got my Merida moment, and now I’m ready to hack it off and live out my French bob fantasies.


    Talk soon. Peace.

  • Stefa, where the hell have you been loca?

    First off, I’d like to apologize for the title of this post.

    I’ve only seen the first Twilight movie and I was at least 30 when I did. I’ve never read the books. I only have peripheral knowledge of the book series or film franchise. I can’t even pretend to be cool enough to like it. Again, my sincerest apologies.

    Still, the question remains: Where have I been?

    Well, I certainly haven’t been on the solo writing retreat that I had lovingly planned for myself.

    Because I had to cancel it. Because we finally got the call that we’re moving to Upstate New York and we had two weeks to get my house ready to show.

    And we did a hell of a job too. Decluttering is one of my favorite activities. I love getting rid of things, so I was very excited about that part of everything. We had the least successful garage sale on the planet, then made a hefty donation to Goodwill. We also managed to paint two bathrooms, lay down a new floor in one, and install a brand-new sink in another.

    Pictures were taken last week. We list next week. And I am in a weird in-between time that I don’t know how to handle.

    Which is part of the reason why I’m writing this blog post- I don’t know what to do with myself.

    I’m good when I have a project to work on. I’m good when I have nothing to do for the foreseeable future and can dabble in my hobbies. I am not good at transitioning from balls-to-the-wall mode to sit-and-wait mode. And I am very bad at sit-and-wait mode in general.

    It’s like when you have a doctor’s appointment in the afternoon, so the rest of your day is totally shot. You can’t possibly accomplish anything when you have a doctor’s appointment later.

    And so, dear reader, I’ve decided to write to you.

    I’ve written nothing in two weeks. I’ve read nothing. I’ve watched surprisingly little TV.

    I have:

    • Gone to a concert
    • Seen a Broadway play
    • Met a writing friend for the first time. Shout out to E.M. Gussler.
    • Eaten my way through a Columbus culinary bucket list that lives only in my head:
      • Marmont Speakeasy
      • Cobra
      • Chapman’s
      • Cento (Friday)
      • Bonifacio (next Tuesday)
    • Played pickleball
    • Gone to book club and offered to host this month
    • Gotten a facial
    • Gone to a Guardian’s game
    • Spent two full hours searching for my husband’s passport two months before we go to Scotland (I found it!)

    Yes. All in the last two weeks. I suppose I play as hard as I work.

    So what comes next you ask?

    • List/Sell the house
    • House hunting trip/buy a house (we have no money, so this will be fun)
    • FIND A JOB- I’d love to be a full-time writer. But that’s a distant fantasy. I have interviews tomorrow and next week for two jobs that I really want.
    • Complete my Columbus culinary bucket list
    • Throw a going away party
    • Have ANOTHER garage sale
    • More pickleball
    • Go to the Doodah Parade for the first time
    • Visit a friend in Portland, OR
    • Complete the next two semesters of my Master’s
    • Lucy Dacus concert
    • MOVE

    And that’s all in the next month and a half.

    And a month after we move, we go to Europe for two weeks.

    And THEN I can settle into a routine.

    THEN, maybe I can write again.

    ttfn

  • Weekly R.E.P.O.R.T. 4/23/25

    I’m learning that this might have to be a monthly installation. Turns out my life isn’t thrilling enough for a weekly report out. Which means that after today, I’m going to need to figure out what to talk to people about every week.

    Reading

    Friends, it is finally time for me to delve into the world of Abby Jimenez. I’ve heard tales of her interdisciplinary talents. I’ve heard she writes her novels on her phone. I’ve heard her dog, Stuntman Mike, makes an appearance in at least one of her novels. I’ve also heard from my editor that Just For The Summer is a comparable title for A Case of You.

    I also have a very dear friend that I’ve been exchanging rom com novels with who was kind enough to drop off six Abby Jimenez books off at my house.

    I’ll keep you posted on my A.J. experience.

    Eating

    This past weekend was Easter. And while I consider myself agnostic and a-religious, I come from an Slovenian Catholic family. If you’ve never been to a Balkan Easter celebration- make yourself some new friends and attend one. The food is divine and plentiful.

    I also must add that 364 days a year, I am a vegetarian. However, this one day, I allow myself to indulge in the delicious nostalgia of this holiday menu: klobase, zelodec (a kind of Slovenian haggis with pig instead of sheep), cottage ham, German potato salad, potica, strudel, etc. The list goes on. The sheer amount of food served on this holiday is honestly embarrassing. But it’s so good I can’t even explain it. Just go make some Balkan friends and chow down.

    Playing

    Role Model’s Kansas Anymore has been on constant repeat and I will talk to anyone and everyone who will listen about the raw vulnerability, belief in true love, and sweet playfulness strewn throughout this album.

    Because Spotify seems to take issue to me listening to the same thirteen tracks over and over again, it has started to play other artists and songs once it’s decided I’ve had enough Role Model.

    One song that I can’t get out of my head is “hunting days” by Khatumu. There is this banjo at the beginning of the song that is kind of surprising and works incredibly well. And there is a riff that follows some lines in the verse and chorus that greatly pleases my brain. Please, do yourself a favor, and go listen.

    Obsessing

    Last night, I saw Sinners. And this morning, I downloaded the soundtrack. Holy crap.

    I love all kinds of music, but one that my husband and I both agree on is Blues. And a movie that combines Blues music, vampires, and TWO Michael B. Jordans?! Say no more.

    The story was great and original. The acting was supreme. The music was amazing. Not just Blues, but Rock and Folk too.

    There was a powerful scene when Delta Slim (played by Delroy Lindo) was telling Sammie/Preacher Boy (played by Miles Canton) and Stack (played by Michael B. Jordan) a story about a friend that was lynched. Slim’s pain was evident as he shook his head and groan and slapped his hands down. And right before the audience’s eyes, Blues music was born of his pain. It was a beautiful and poignant way to show the origins of the genre.

    There was also a wonderful, surreal scene that took place with Miles Canton’s gorgeous deep voice in the background, that showed the evolution of music. What came before Blues and inspired it. What Blues gave rise to. And it made me want to finally read A Little Devil in America, which has been sitting on my shelf for ages.

    I’m going to go on a tangent now, but I’ve been lucky enough to meet Hanif Abdurraqib. And not only is he a master of the written word, he speaks with such intention and beauty. And if you’ve never read his writing- I mean, you don’t have to care about music or sports or culture of any kind- his writing will capture you. /end rant.

    Recommending

    On Friday I saw Jeff Arcuri live. I’ve been following him on Instagram for a while, and am genuinely impressed with his crowd work. He manages to balance poking fun with friendly curiosity. I can confirm that his stand up (which is peppered with crowd work) is just as hilarious as the clips he posts. He is going to be recording a Netflix special, so if you’re not able to see him live, you’ll be able to catch him on streaming!

    Treating

    It’s patio weather in Columbus, Ohio. So I’ve been dining al fresco and probably sipping a few more cocktails than normal. But life is as short and beautiful as it is long and ugly, so make the most of it.

    Until next time.

  • Weekly R.E.P.O.R.T. 4.13.25

    Reading

    I just picked up a copy of Maggie Smith’s Dear Writer. Now, you may be asking me: Stefa, didn’t you say you were moving across the country and downsizing your books and trying to save money? Well, why don’t you mind your own business? Maggie Smith is a National and Local Treasure, and her book was literally written specifically for me: a writer.

    Eating

    Spent Sunay with some of my best friends. They’re amazing cooks and mixologists and the reason that my sense of humor is so crass and childish. They made me tacos and cocktails and birthday brownies and we laughed so hard our sides hurt. They’re also the people who introduced me to coastal Michigan, so in a way, you have them to thank for A Case of You. Don’t tell them though, their heads will swell.

    Playing

    My Middle Ages playlist. I’ll admit, it’s not as good at my A Case of You playlist. But I’ve found that having background music really helps me focus on my writing.

    Obsessing

    Obsessing over the bookstagram and bookthreads community. I reached out looking for fellow readers and writers after about 3 days of non-stop bot activity. And people came out en force. I found so many fellow Ohio writers that my writer friend, E.N. Gussler, and I have decided to host an Ohio Writer/Reader meet up in June! Go to the event tab at the top of my site to learn more and register.

    Recommending

    I highly recommend celebrating your wins. For a long time, I kept my wins private, not wanting to feel like a braggart. But you’d be surprised by how many people are on your side and want to see you succeed. So, let’s celebrate a win right now.

    A Case of You is still a work in progress. It’s with a developmental editor right now, just so I can be positive that I’ve done right by this story.

    Many of my beta readers also agreed that the beginning of my manuscript is the weakest part.

    All that to say that I entered The Writer’s Sanctuary Storyteller First Page Contest back in March. And I just got my feedback.

    62/80. My scores for the eight categories (scored out of 10) included one 10, five 8s, and two 6s.

    So as someone that knows their first few pages need work, this is a huge win for me. In addition, the contest is judged by best-selling authors and experienced editors, which feels extremely validating. Also, here is my favorite part of the feedback:

    Love the voice and tone of this story. The writing perfectly conveys the beauty and laziness of summer. Also, the characters were fantastic.

    Treating

    I treated myself to the most glorious massage on Sunday afternoon. The therapist was recommended to me by a friend and I was not steered wrong. So, if you’ve been thinking about scheduling that massage- go ahead and do it. It’s worth it. Already planning my next one.

    See you next week 🙂

  • Weekly R.E.P.O.R.T. – Birthday Edition

    That’s right. It’s my birthday. And I could really use a reason to celebrate.

    Reading

    The day before I left for NYC, I finished The Long Game by Elena Armas. It was a slow burn, which kept me frustrated as much as it kept me reading. It felt like Roy Kent from Ted Lasso moved to Stars Hollow and fell in love with the clumsiest, most ambitious woman in the world. It was a low-key read and the girls’ soccer team characters were surprisingly cute.

    I’m not an audiobook gal. I hate to say it. But I listen every now and again, though it feels like pulling teeth to force myself to do it. So even though I’m currently enjoying every moment of The RomCommers by Katherine Center, it’s slow-going.

    But, while in NYC, I made a trip to the romance reader/writer capital of the world, The Ripped Bodice in Brooklyn.

    Even though I am on a book buying ban on account of my impending move across the country, I had to buy something. So I picked up a copy of B.K. Borison’s First-Time Caller. I’ve heard so many good things about this book that I just had to buy it. I’m so excited to start!

    Eating

    It’s New York City. So, I ate everything I could without making myself too sick. I am not going to make myself any friends by saying this, but I’m meh on pizza. I like it enough. But I really don’t go out of my way to eat it. Maybe it has something to do with being a Type 1 Diabetic and pizza being notoriously difficult to bolus for. However, my husband’s ask was that we have pizza once-a-day. And I delivered on that promise, with Bleecker Street being the clear winner.

    I think my favorite meal though was my breakfast at Jack’s Wife Freda. Unfortunately, I was too hungry to take any pictures of it when it arrived. I devoured it in no time. I am going to recommend the Mediterranean Breakfast with poached eggs though. Divine.

    Playing

    “doomsday” by Lizzy McAlpine on repeat. I can’t get enough.

    Obsessing

    Unfortunately, I’m obsessing about the end of America. And toying with the idea of fleeing to Europe instead of moving to NYS. It’s getting really ugly out there and this weekend’s collective action was uplifting. Being in NYC for probably one of the biggest protests that weekend was insane.

    Recommending

    There were no movies this week. There was nearly no TV aside from the season finale of White Lotus. I was really only on my phone to use the map app or take pictures. And I really didn’t feel that disconnected. The world was happening right in front of my eyes. Maybe it’s the magic of NYC. I really enjoy the way Brennan Lee Mulligan puts it. That NYC is good for the soul. He says that “It is good for you to be forcibly ejected from the story you are constantly telling yourself about your own life. The fact that you are very much not the main character…” And as someone who has been told she has main character energy, or maybe more aptly, main character syndrome, NYC does just that. You become only one small part of a whole when you’re that close to that many people. And even though you feel smaller, it’s almost more empowering- you’re a part of something much greater when you’re there.

    So I’d like to recommend going somewhere. Getting out of your routine and out of your head. Getting off your phone (even for just a few hours). And going out and being part of that collective consciousness for just a little bit. And realize that even though you might be obsessing about the downfall of America- it’s still pretty beautiful out there.

    Treating

    Let’s be honest, this entire weekend was a treat. I didn’t say no to anything until about 1am when my body, which had been up since 4am, decided it was unable to continue. I ate, drank, and was very merry. I got to see some of my very favorite people and have deep, dark, terrifying conversations as well as silly, side-splitting ones.

  • Weekly R.E.P.O.R.T. for 3/24/25

    This was a big week. I had a friend visiting from out of town, so I was a little more out and about than usual.

    Reading

    It’s a twofer this week. I’m reading The Long Game by Elena Armas and The Rom-Commers by Katherine Center.

    This is my second time trying to read The Rom-Commers. I checked it out from the library that last time I went to Saugatuck, but I never really got into it. Then I saw the audiobook was available on Libby and I gave it a chance. I am laughing out loud and injecting my own reaction into the narrative as it unfolds much to the horror of the passengers in my car.

    Eating

    Everything in sight. With my friend visiting from out of town, I made sure she ate well. There were brunches, more coffee than two humans should consume, delicious pastas, and so many cocktails. I think my favorite food from this week though, were the chocolate coated pretzel poppers we nibbled on at the jazz club. Good enough to throw in your purse and take home.

    Playing

    Ever subject your D.D. to unrequested karaoke? My friend and I both love to sing, so naturally, our karaoke go-to’s were the soundtrack for the drive home from the jazz club. Celine Dion, Elle King, Lake Street Dive, Lady Gaga, and so much more.

    Obsessing

    Over my female friendships. The women in my life are everything. From my front-porch-friends to my dining-room-table-friends. The way we show up for each other, the way we can celebrate wins and mourn losses together, it’s incredible. And having my college friend visit this week reminded me of that. It’s amazing to be able to pick up where you left off with people, even if you haven’t been the best at staying in touch. We can open our hearts to each other, pour our guts out, and rest easy knowing that not only will we not be judged, but we’ll be loved.

    Recommending

    It was another good week for the movies. I saw Novocaine this week. It was such a fun action movie. What caught me off guard about it, was that is opened like a rom-com. It was sweet and butterfly-inducing and helped us really root for the hero as the plot developed. Afterwards, I learned that the writers, Dan Berk and Robert Olsen, also wrote The Villains, a hilarious, rom-com-adjacent, action thriller.

    Novocaine was just the right amount of tongue-in-cheek. It featured a heavily-tattooed Jack Quaid which gave me feelings I never expected to experience. And the gratuitous gore and violence left this action-movie-lover satisfied.

    Treating

    The horses! I took my friend to meet my buddies Blaze and Quinn this week. Blaze didn’t want to come in from his beautiful day in the pasture, even for a carrot, so we treated his herd mates. But my boy Quinn has been on stall rest and is also a treat fiend. So he was more than happy to indulge us. I even hopped on Quinn’s back for a bit and walked him around the pastures. I can’t wait for summer and our romps in the woods. He’s seriously the most tolerant boy in the world. I do so much stupid shit with him on the trail.

    And this concludes me weekly R.E.P.O.R.T.

    Next weeks will be another fun one because it’s not only my birthday, but I’m headed to NYC to visit family!

  • My weekly R.E.P.O.R.T.

    I’m blatantly stealing this from a TikTok I saw. I just love it so much. Especially since I’m probably moving across the country this year and it just seems like a great way to keep long-distance loved ones painfully up to date with my life.

    Reading

    Dear god in heaven that I don’t believe in, why haven’t I read Elena Armas before?! The Spanish Love Deception has been sitting on my shelf for approximately a millennia. I don’t even remember buying it. I don’t know how it got there. Maybe the smutty rom com fairy dropped it off for me one night. Smutty rom com fairy- if you’re out there, thank you.

    In the novel, enemy co-workers, Aaron Motherfucking Blackford and Catalina (Lina) Martin strike up a deal. Lina will accompany Aaron to a charity auction and save him from a cougar’s clutches and Aaron will be Lina’s date (and fake boyfriend) to her sister’s wedding in Spain. Also, Lina’s sister is marrying Lina’s ex’s brother. And her ex is the best man. And apparently, he is engaged. So, Lina is desperate. The book is a slow burn with so much sexual tension that when I closed the book every evening, I screamed a little. Thank you, Elena, for this perfect sexy little rom com. You’ve earned yourself a fan for life.

    Eating

    Sushi. I go through phases where literally the only thing I want is a spicy tuna roll. Or five. And I’m suffering with that at the moment. I did my grocery shopping for the week. I planned out all my meals. And yet, I’m tempted to let that lettuce in the fridge wilt in favor of overpriced raw fish. Sorry not sorry.

    PLAYING

    I’m going to interpret this as the music that’s currently playing in my earbuds. There are at least 3 songs I have on repeat right now. 1. Ankles by Lucy Dacus. 2. Just My Luck by Obongjayar. 3. How Bad Do U Want Me by Lady Gaga.

    When I’m begrudgingly cooking my dinner that disappointingly isn’t sushi, I am putting Just My Luck on at full volume and dancing around in my kitchen with a glass of wine in my hand. This is the vibe I will be requiring all summer long.

    Obsessing

    White Lotus.

    Oh my god. That monologue from Sam Rockwell. The perfectly nuanced acting of Walton Goggins.

    The Ratliff brothers being just as weird as I suspected them to be.

    My three toxic queens making questionable decisions. Ugh. And the realness of the conversation that made them realize Kate probably voted from Tr*mp. Omg.

    And Aimee Lou Wood being absolute perfection.

    Can’t get enough.

    Recommending

    I am an obsessive cinephile. Though my poor attention span means I can really only enjoy a film in the sensory deprivation chamber of theaters. This month I’ve seen The Monkey, Mickey 17, and Black Bag. And I recommend all three.

    The Monkey was a surprisingly hilarious horror movie. Like if Final Destination had been a comedy. Seeing Theo James play his own twin (with a mullet) was a treasure I never expected to receive.

    Mickey 17 was probably the best movie I’ve seen so far this year. I didn’t get on the Twilight train when it was in its heyday. I’ve actually only ever seen the first movie. And I only saw it a few years ago. And yet, when I forget poor Robert Pattinsons’ name, I call him Edward Cullen. But I will say that all of the things I’ve seen him in over the last few years have proven to me that he is a spectacular actor. Every performance I see of his leaves me more impressed. Mickey 17 is incredibly clever and a little silly. And totally worth your time.

    Black Bag is a cerebral spy whodunnit. I feel like I need to rewatch it with subtitles because I’m certain there are things I missed. It was a subtle, clever film with plenty of moments that left me surprised or shocked. One of my favorite film genres is the spy movie. I’m a sucker for James Bond, Bourne Identity, Mission Impossible, etc. My love of these movies extends to the parodic varietals as well. Johnny English is a masterpiece. I watched Spy on a plane and my row mates were incredibly annoyed by my incessant laughter. The Kingsmen films are such a delight. Basically, I’m probably going to enjoy a spy movie simply because of what it is. Black Bag stands out in the genre though and is certainly worth a watch.

    Treating

    I love treat culture. I firmly believe that every day I deserve a little treat. But my wallet disagrees. And I’m trying to be more financially responsible.

    So I got two new tattoos.

    One was a spur of the moment folksy flash by an artist I’ve been dying to get into. And the other was planned for at least 6 months. It’s a memorial piece of my dogs. My baby boy, Hugo, died this past December and now I can look down at my wrist and see him running like the happy, active boy he was, anytime I want.

    And that’s my weekly report! Enjoy!

  • WIP: Middle Ages

    Now that I’ve finished my first novel. Like finished finished. I guess I get to work on my next one.

    If I’m being honest, I usually have about three working ideas in various stages going on all at once.

    • There is a sequel to A Case of You that I’ve started to write.
    • There is a dirty little roommate romance that has taken over my notes app.
    • And there is the thrilling, stroke of genius, fantasy romcom that I am dying to get on the page.

    I am a huge fan of campy, tongue-in-cheek, on-the-nose-type explorations of genres and tropes. I love A Knight’s Tale. I adored My Lady Jane and I will never forgive the powers that be for cancelling it after one season. The Princess Bride. Robinhood Men in Tights. Ella Enchanted. The cinematic masterpiece Stardust. Freaking Shrek. Even the Dungeons & Dragons movie.

    That being said, I also spent 2024 reading the entire ACOTAR and Fourth Wing series.

    I have my opinions- good and bad. I will keep them to myself on this website. Though my TikTok is full of those opinions, so view at your own discretion.

    So, after a full year of non-stop romantasy consumption, what else is there left to do but write a trope-twisting hilarious romcom about a woman in her late 30s learning that she is the chosen one of a hidden realm. And I’ve called it Middle Ages. God I’m so proud of that title.

    I actually have a 5,600-word outline and the first chapter completed, but I’ve gotten about a million new ideas since I first put pen to paper, so I need to sit down and decide on the direction I actually want the story to go in.

    As I get more into this story, I’ll post updates on where I am. It’ll be a much more plot-driven endeavor than what I’m used to. And once I do get a draft or two of it complete, I’ll need a flock of beta readers to help me with it.

    More to come ❤️

  • Tilbury House

    Tilbury House is my first short story. And re-reading it now, three years later, I realized just how much I’ve learned about writing. There is so much about this story that I’d like to change, so much that I could improve. However, it was a finalist for a short fiction contest. So, I’ll post it here exactly the way I submitted it.

    While I consider myself a romcom writer through and through, one genre tends to continue to rear is head as ideas come to me: gothic. Gothic horror, gothic romance, etc. It’s one of my favorite genres to read, and why this genre seems to want me to write it so badly, I’ll never know.

    Both of the short stories I’ve written are gothic in nature. Tilbury House is more along the lines of gothic horror- and now I’ve decided that I’m going to write a blog post about my love of gothic literature and make reading and watching recommendations.

    Anyways, Tilbury House is inspired by Native American and Appalachian folklore. The idea that the mountains have a life of their own has always been very romantic to me. And the concept that not everything that lives in those dense woods is friendly is thrilling. And then there’s the fact that the Appalachian Mountains are older than bone- literally older than the evolution of bones- that really makes it so horrifyingly magical and mysterious.

    I hope you enjoy Tilbury House ❤️

    Tilbury house

    I am in the business of resurrection. 

    I’m drawn to the decayed and derelict; the forgotten places call to me and I bring them back to life. This time, I fear I went too far.   

    I should have thrown away that letter, treated it like junk mail and never opened it. But I did. While I scanned the job offer, a check fluttered from it. $10,000.  My heart started to beat out an unsteady rhythm as I read further. An old stone house in the Appalachian Mountains in desperate need of repair. No budgetary constraints. Travel expenses paid and lodging provided. The full payment for the job made my eyes water. 

    Without a second thought, I deposited the check. I breathed a sigh of relief knowing my account wouldn’t be overdrawn this month. In a recession, few want to pay the price of restoring historic buildings to their former glory. A moment later, my phone rang, and a lilting Southern voice spoke. “I see you’ve accepted the offer.”   

    “Excuse me?”  

    “My name is Thaddeus Tremain, Esquire,” the voice drawled. The name sounded fake. “My employer has sent you an offer, and I am assuming, based on the fact that their account is now $10,000 less, you intend to accept.”  

    “I do,” I stuttered. “How did you-”  

    “You put an ad out in an issue of This Old House. That’s how we got your information,” he replied.  

    I’d nearly forgotten about that ad. It did me no good at the time and it hadn’t been cheap either. The advance alone for this job covered that expense and then some. Guess it paid off after all.  

    “How soon can you start, Ms. Archer?”  

    “Immediately,” I told him.  

    “Excellent. I’ll have a car pick you up and take you to the airport at six tomorrow morning.”  

    “Wait,” I said. “Aren’t you going to tell me the flight information?”  

    “Ms. Archer, you’ll be flying private. There’s nothing for you to worry about except making this your best work. I’ll meet you tomorrow and we’ll go over details.”  

    He promptly hung up and a sinking feeling hit me. I had no idea where this house was or what shape it was in. What was I getting myself into? 

    *** 

    At 6am sharp, a black sedan pulled up to my building and let out two short honks. A few minutes later we were pulling onto the tarmac alongside a small jet. Well, it could have been large as far as private jets go. I’d only ever flown whatever class is below economy.  

    I didn’t come from wealth. My mother and stepfather worked so much I hardly saw them, and we somehow still managed to be dirt poor. Our house was old, and they didn’t have the means to fix things. So, I’d used my high school shop department and figured it out myself. I replaced a few pieces of crumbling clapboard siding and rehung some crooked shutters. I thought they’d be proud. But my stepfather found it emasculating. What did it say about him that a 16-year-old girl was doing what he couldn’t? That only made me want to get better. I took a summer job assisting a contractor. After high school she hired me on as an apprentice. The rest is history. 

    Beside the jet stood who I presumed to be Thaddeus. He was dressed in a pale blue seersucker suit. He seemed ageless; his well-groomed beard of white stood out in high contrast against his smooth, tan skin. His drawl greeted me along with his outstretched hand, “Ms. Archer. Pleasure to meet you. Let’s head inside and get started.”  

    On board, he got straight to business. I barely had a chance to sit when several folders were thrust upon me.   

    “From what we can tell from archives in Philadelphia, a widower and Revolutionary War veteran named Jeremiah Tilbury selected this land as payment for his service. Most veterans were given plots of rich farmland in the Ohio Country, but Jeremiah requested a remote woodland plot. At the time, it was a two-day ride on horseback to the nearest town,” Thaddeus explained.   

    I was entranced. As an apprentice, I’d done colonial houses along the East Coast, but I’d never had the chance to sink my teeth into one this old on my own. And this would be a challenge, the house looked half caved in and nearly reclaimed by the forest. 

    Thaddeus continued, leafing through photos. “Mr. Tilbury is said to have built the house by hand, using local sandstone. Once he completed it, he sent for his daughter, Sarah.”  

    “How do you know all this?” I asked, incredulous.  

    “We have her diaries,” he replied. “They will be at your disposal so that you may immerse yourself in the history of the home. We hope this will aid your work.”  

    “Oh, it very much will!” I said excitedly.  

    “You’ll also be staying in the house.”  

    “I will?” I looked at it again. It was derelict. The only thing that should be living in there was a raccoon. Thaddeus opened another envelope and showed me the interior.  

    “Sarah’s bedroom appears to have been spared the wrath of time. We believe that when the roof caved in, the rubble closed off the room, protecting it from the elements. Diego, the foreman, has already done work on the house, making it structurally sound. We’ve set up all reasonable amenities.”  

    As I looked closer at the photographs, not only was Sarah’s room spared from decay, but it looked entirely preserved. “What else can you tell me about the history of the house?” I asked.  

    “When Jeremiah passed away, the house went to Sarah. She lived there until her death, on November 1, 1821. After that, there’s no record of it.” He sat back and folded his hands across his lap. 

    “What do you mean no record?” I asked.   

    “After Sarah died, it ceased to exist. My employer bought this land, hoping to make a country retreat, something akin to Fallingwater. When the land was surveyed, the house was found. There were no local records of it. We had to go to the National Archives to learn anything. Sarah’s diaries were invaluable. We believe it has been entirely unoccupied since her death.”  

    I blew out a breath. This would be the biggest job of my career. This would put me on the map. I felt goosebumps prickling across my skin.  

    After the plane landed, a Land Rover took us through winding country roads for hours. Some were paved, most were not. This place was far more remote than I’d imagined. I suppose the Appalachian Mountains were still one of the great wildernesses of this country. 

    I saw the pickups scattered amongst the trees before I saw the house. There were several men working, stripping vines from the stone walls and refueling the generator. A tall, tan man with a mess of black curls waved excitedly from the crooked porch. “That’s Diego,” Thaddeus said. “He’ll be your right-hand man. Anything you need, he’ll make it happen.”  

    Diego jogged energetically down the uneven steps, nearly stumbling. His jeans were worn and paint-splattered, a stark contrast to his immaculate white T-shirt. He came around to the back of the truck and helped me with my things. “You must be Sylvie!” he said. “I’m Diego. Come on, I’ll show you your new home!” Every sentence he said felt like it ended in an exclamation point.  

    The house had that familiar musty smell that so many old houses do. I inhaled deeply. A scent memory so strong it reminded me why I loved doing this job. Diego led me to Sarah’s bedroom. Most of the furniture was original except the bed, for which I was grateful. Rope and tick wasn’t notoriously comfortable. “Ok!” he said, clapping his hands. “We’ve put in a temporary structure to keep out the elements. You have AC,” he gestured to the window unit. “There’s a space heater, microwave, hot plate, and mini fridge.” He looked around. “Oh, we have a port-a-potty for you. And there’s a camp shower with hot running water. We’ll refuel the generator regularly. There’s clean drinking water in these jugs. We’re staying about an hour away. If you ever need anything from town, just tell me!” 

    “Wow,” I said, taking in the surroundings. “I don’t know what to say.”  

    “It’s exciting, isn’t it?” He beamed at me. I nodded, speechless. “Tell you what, no work today. You settle in. Maybe read some of Sarah’s diaries, carefully explore…” He handed me a hardhat. “We can touch base tomorrow and make a plan.”  

    That night, while eating my dinner of canned soup, I flipped open the first of Sarah Tilbury’s diaries and began to read. Sarah was excited about her new house but missed her father terribly while he was away.  

    Tucked in the pages of the diary were their correspondences. They were filled with lamentations on the death of Sarah’s mother. “I am sorry, dear child,” he would say. “It is my greatest regret that you’ll have no mother in this new home.” 

    *** 

    I woke to the sound of whistling, then a knock on my door that I could only describe as cheerful, suggesting Diego. I hurriedly got dressed and splashed water on my face. When I opened the door, he was grinning at me. “I didn’t wake you, did I?”  

    “Of course not,” I lied, checking the time on my phone. It was dead. “What time is it?” I asked, as I plugged it in. 

    “Just before 10. By the way, the only thing your phone is going to be good for out here is telling time. No service in the mountains.” 

    We reviewed the work that had already been done and the goals of the project. We needed to modernize the house with all the luxuries of the 21st century while still honoring its history. No easy task in a building this old and worn. We formulated a plan and Diego and his men got to work under my direction.   

    *** 

    Progress was being made. Sandstone from a local quarry had been shipped in and the masons were reconstructing the outer walls. Diego’s men came and went in weekly shifts. Just as soon as I’d get used to a crew, they’d switch out. Diego was the only constant. 

    His whistling became part of my day. Usually, it was a song from back home in Chile, but every now and then a Top 40 hit would get in his head. It wasn’t unusual to hear him whistling Taylor Swift. That morning, he’d barely gotten out two notes from “Antihero” before someone shouted angrily.  

    “Damn outsiders,” the man grumbled. “Y’all don’t know the rules. You’ll get us all killed!”  

    “Hey now, what’s the problem?” Diego asked placatingly.  

    “The whistling, they don’t like it,” the man growled.  

    A shiver ran up my spine at his warning. 

    “Who?” I asked.  

    “What lives out there,” he replied, gesturing vaguely.  

    “The animals?” Diego inquired.  

    “You two must be dumber n’ hell,” he scoffed. “There’s worse things than bears in these woods.” He turned to me. “You ain’t gonna last a minute out here lady. Best stay at the hotel with us.”  

    I furrowed my brow. “I’ve been here for a few weeks now,” I explained. “I’m doing just fine.”  

    I looked at Diego who seemed just as confused. “Vernon, I’m not going to whistle anymore, okay? Let’s just get to work.”  

    *** 

    I didn’t want to admit it, but Vernon’s words had set me on edge. That night, I drew the curtains shut tight and hooked the back of a chair under the doorknob. As I tried to sleep, the sounds of the forest moved in on me; the chirping of the insects, hooting of owls, and occasional yip of a coyote. They seemed to surround me, to smother me. I closed my eyes and wrapped my pillow around my head, but sleep wouldn’t come. I flicked on the lamp and pulled out one of Sarah’s diaries, hoping that I might read myself to sleep.  

    “Father isn’t himself anymore. He is paranoid. Every sound terrifies him. He won’t let me go out after sunset. He adds bolts to the door. He hardly sleeps, staying up all night, pacing the floors until I think he might wear them through.”  

    Nope. I shut the book quickly and reached for another.  

    “Father has passed. Losing mother was painful, but now father? I cannot bear the loneliness.” 

    I flipped through the book, hoping to find a happier passage.   

    “A bird flew in through the open window today. A jay. He looked right at me and screamed, giving me an awful fright. She says she will protect me, my dear old house. She keeps father’s rules and does not let me out at night. I am no longer so lonesome.” 

    *** 

    The house was coming to life before my eyes. The roof was fully intact and reclaimed flooring had been laid. The cellar kitchen was restored and the chimney’s mortar repaired. She felt whole. 

    One morning, Diego had brought me a few more supplies than normal. He said a storm was coming through. The spun-off remnants of a hurricane. There was a chance the mountain road would become impassable for a day or two. The generator’s fuel was topped off. I had an abundance of drinking water and non-perishables. The house and I were ready to weather anything.  

    That night the rain started. A heavy, steady drumming. I’d taken to listening to the radio in the evenings while studying Sarah’s books. The weatherman warned of heavy rain for the next two to three days as the slow-moving hurricane fizzled out. Sarah, it seemed, was fading as well.   

    “The Johnson boy came by the other day, selling their yield. I ordered some flour and beans. I asked him to send a doctor for me. I don’t sleep well; I’ve taken up daddy’s practice of pacing the floor at night. I pray to God, but I can’t seem to remember how anymore. The worse I feel, the louder She gets. She used to speak in whispers. Now I hear Her as though She were beside me.”  

    At first, I thought the lonely woman was personifying her beloved home. But the more I read, the more I believed Sarah was going mad. What had it been like, being so isolated from the world, relying on others for the necessities of life?  

    *** 

    The next morning, I was awoken by a loud blaring noise coming from the radio, an emergency alert. A state of emergency had been declared for Southwestern Pennsylvania. Widespread flash flooding started not long after the rainfall began. Rivers were overflowing their banks. Roadways were impassable. The National Guard was rescuing people from their flooded homes. I mentally thanked Diego’s forethought. I should be good for at least a week up here with all the supplies he’d brought me. The rain still battered the side of the house. All I could do was make myself comfortable and wait for it to pass. I went back to Sarah’s diaries.  

    “The Johnson boy is lost. I can hear him in the woods, calling for me. The house tells me not to go. She says it isn’t him. Says the woods are playing tricks on me. She says that if I stay here, I will be safe. I don’t know who to trust anymore. I can no longer tell Her thoughts from my own. God help me.”  

    I frowned down at the book and looked around my bedroom, patting the wall behind me. “What do you think, old girl?” I said aloud. “Can you really talk?”  

    I found myself talking aloud more often as one day turned into two, then three. The radio told endless tales of worsening flooding and seemingly ceaseless rainfall. Outside, the downpour had become more of a drizzle, but that didn’t really matter to the bloated rivers in the valley below. “You’ll keep me safe, won’t you girly?” I said, stroking the wood beams. “What should we have for breakfast, my friend? Oatmeal or… oatmeal?” I’d ask.  

    I continued to read Sarah’s diaries, longing to know what was truly going on with this poor woman.  

    “I hear the Johnson boy every night. She tells me not to go. But I can’t stand it anymore. He’s lost and scared. She won’t let me open the door. If he calls again tonight, I am going to go to him. I will break a window if I must. As I write this, she is growing upset. She is pleading with me not to go. I hear him.” 

    This was her last entry, dated November 1, 1821. A shiver set into my bones as I recognized the date. If only these walls could talk. What would they say?  

    *** 

    I was awoken by Diego’s whistling. I smiled sleepily, finally rescued. As I got out of bed, I realized it was still dark outside. I checked my phone, 3am. The whistle sounded again. Peering out the window, I saw nothing but darkness. I unlocked the front door, but it wouldn’t open.  

    No  

    A whisper came from behind me, somewhere in the house, and I whipped around. Nothing.  

    I tried the door again. Maybe the moisture in the air had caused it to swell. I pulled on the handle, rattling the door in its frame.   

    “Sylvie? Mi amor?” Diego’s voice called from outside. I looked out the window again and saw nothing but the black of the forest, in the mountains that were older than bones.   

    No   

    Then the lights went out and everything grew deathly silent. Nights up here were always filled with the humming of the generator and the din of the insects and birds. But now? The silence was deafening. 

    Outside, something called my name again, but this time it didn’t sound like Diego. My hair stood on end, and I watched the lock turn into place on its own. 

    I tried to steady my breath. Unsure if I should be more frightened of the thing outside or the thing inside. I slowly slid onto the floor, trying to make myself small.  

    No  

    I fell asleep, curled up against the front door.   

    *** 

    I’d been stranded for over a week. I was starting to give up hope of rescue. My food stores were starting to run low despite rationing them. I’d contemplated foraging, but I know I’d end up like Christopher McCandless. He was smart about those types of things, and he still died. I didn’t stand a chance. The whispering voice spoke more often and it unnerved me. 

    If I could get to the highway, maybe someone could help me. I packed a bag and set out at dawn.  

    Stay. 

    I walked for hours without a break, hoping to make it to the highway before nightfall. But my progress was slow on the steep paths thick with slick mud. Parts of the road were completely washed out by gentle mountain brooks that had grown into raging rivers. I’d become so focused on my task, that I hardly noticed the setting sun. I heard Her calling me and I realized I would not make it. 

    Come back! 

    I turned around, trying to pick up the pace, but I was exhausted, the road remained difficult to travel. Dusk was settling into the woods, and I tried to ignore the pit of fear in my stomach. 

    Don’t answer them. 

    The sun sank lower and lower as I scrambled back toward Her. 

    Stay on the road. Don’t look in the trees. 

    I may not have understood Her advice, but I followed it. I kept my eyes on the path before me, illuminated now by only my flashlight, the new moon sky dark as pitch. 

    Then, I was careening forward. My foot got caught on a large rock hidden beneath the mud. The breath was knocked from my chest, and it was a moment before I could rise again. When I did, the woods were deathly silent. A chill ran up my spine. I heard a whistle, though I couldn’t tell from where it came. It seemed to echo within my own mind. 

    I ran until my lungs burned and my legs cramped. Adrenaline kept me moving when my body wanted to give up. The whistling seemed to be everywhere. Without and within. I glued my eyes to the road, afraid to look anywhere. My only goal was to get back to the safety of Her. 

    *** 

    She spoke to me louder now, just as Sarah had said. She kept me safe, alive. A confused pheasant flew in through the open window, and desperate and hungry, I pounced upon it. A wild grape vine had snaked its way up Her side, slipping its nimble fingers between Her stones. They were sour, but they filled my belly. 

    *** 

    The whistling came back, this time in the daylight. The creature only ever came at night. When I heard it, I dropped everything and ran for the safety of Her. I slammed the door and threw the latches. I lay on my belly on the floor, trembling 

    “Sylvie,” I heard from outside. It was back, trying to make me think it was Diego. Didn’t it know She had taught me its wily ways? A knock. “Sylvie, mi amor, are you okay? We’re here.”  

    A humming sound started. The generator was working again. “Sylvie, I’m going to break down the door, if you don’t open it.”  

    From my place on the floor, I saw an eye through the window. “Sylvie? Are you okay?” he shouted. Then, “Vernon! She’s in here, on the floor.”  

    It was him. It was really him! I stood up and ran to the door, unlocking it. I grasped the handle and pulled. It didn’t budge. “Please!” I shouted to Her, “Let me out!” I pounded on the door with my fists.  

    On the other side, Diego desperately tried to turn the handle, but couldn’t. “Stand back, Sylvie!” he called.  

    “Don’t hurt Her!” I yelled. She’d protected me. She’d saved me. “Don’t hurt Her!”  

    “Sylvie, you need to stand back!” Vernon said through the window.  

    I threw my body against the door. “No!” If they were going to attack Her, they’d have to go through me. I braced myself.  

    A loud crash came from the bedroom, and I screamed. Diego was climbing through the window. He wrapped me in his arms, and I writhed and fought him. “Okay Vern!” he called out as he wrestled me away from the door.   

    I could hear a saw being started up outside. “No!” I cried out. “Please no! Just let me go! Please! Don’t let them hurt you!”  

    For a moment, I thought I saw the door quiver, as though it might swing open of its own free will. But then I felt Her dig in harder than before. She’d sunk her claws into my mind and She was never going to let me go.  

    “Vern, hurry up!” Diego said.   

    The saw blade gnawed through the wooden door and I shrieked. I could hear Her screaming in my mind. 

     “Sylvie, look at me,” Diego said calmly. “I’m going to get you out of here, okay? I’m sorry it took us so long. I’ve got you now.” 

    *** 

    The longer I am away from Her, the more distance between us, the less I feel Her influence. At first, I was under constant surveillance or else I’d try to find my way back. Was She that connected to Sarah too? The night Sarah died, had it been the thing in the woods? Or had it been Her. Did She dig her claws in so deep she broke flesh? 

    I can still hear Her, calling for me. A mother bemoaning the loss of Her child. I don’t know how far I’ll have to go to get away. Maybe Chile will be far enough.  

     

  • So I Guess I’m Doing This

    I finished my novel – now what?

    I’ve been writing since 2021. Through a combination of an obsessive reading habit, overactive imagination, and COVID-based boredom, one day I developed the audacity to believe I could write a novel. I’d read hundreds of them; how hard could it be. And to my surprise, the actual writing part wasn’t that hard. Turning that writing into a cohesive story- that was more of a challenge.

    I wrote two entire novels that will probably never see the light of day because I am a pantser with no aim, going off of purely vibes, and deliciously giddy machinations.

    So, I took some creative writing classes at a local community college, where I learned both the art of the short story and that I was far too verbose for that category. Though I managed to get the ego boost of being a short fiction finalist for a literary journal contest.

    Back to the drawing board. In 2023 I visited Saugatuck Michigan for the first time. I was fresh off of the high of nearly recognized literary greatness and was sunning myself on the beach when an idea came to me.

    And then I scrapped it.

    And then I re-worked it.

    And then I scrapped it again.

    And then I wrote and wrote and wrote for nearly a year and a half straight until something resembling A Case of You took shape.

    A Case of You is a small-town Midwestern romcom set in the fictional town of Holden, Michigan, very tightly based on the real town of Saugatuck, Michigan. It features a hilarious cast of characters that celebrate a summer of shenanigans before one of them leaves town forever. There are themes of found family, strong female friendships, strained maternal relationships, small town summer nonsense, and lost love. Though, I’ll go ahead and give you a spoiler – it has a happy ending.

    I am currently in the query process right now, as my first choice is to be traditionally published. But we’ll see.

    If you stick around with me. I’ll share my writing journey with you. What I’m currently working on (a fantasy romcom called Middle Ages), how the query process is sucking my soul from my body, and all kinds of other book-loving nonsense.

    Thanks in advance.